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Matthew Goh I am...
Am Chinese Christian with a dying dialect, Foochow.
Evolved into 11 this April.
However,known to be 25 for legal reasons.
Am a Taurean from the 1997 batch of babies.
Born 27/04/1997 @ 0524hrs almost into a toilet bowl.
Thank God, brought 2 life in Toa Payoh Hospital.
Love making friends, but have juz a few close ones.
Am an out of the closet gay guy .
Looking around and still single.
ORDed on 26/06/2004.
As for now, am a Customer Service Officer for FarEastFlora.com.
Top it all up, am too a student in SHATEC.
Realli got too many hobbies 2 name.

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Cheng San Kindergarten School
1988 - 1989

Da Qiao Primary School (P1-2, 2-2, 3-2, 4-3, 5-3, 6-2)
1990 - 1995

Ang Mo Kio Secondary School (Sec 1/3, 2/3, 3/3, 4/3)
1996 - 1999

Nanyang Junior College (OG 23, 1 CT 24, 1 CT 18, 2 CT 18)
2000 - 2001

Tekong BMTC School 2, Orion Coy, Platoon 3, Section 2, Bed 6
27th Dec 2001 - 16th Feb 2002

Ayer Rajar Camp, Ordnance Engineering And Training Institute, Electronics And Weapons Training Wing, Small Arms BTT 5
8 Feb 2002 - 4th May 2002

Nee Soon Driclad Centre, 6 Direct Support Maintenance Base, Armament Coy, Small Arms Platoon
6th May 2002 - 26th Jun 2004

Tristellar Enterprise, Sales & Logistics Coordinator AKA Account Manager
7th Jul 2004 - 5th Sep 2006

FarEastFlora.com Pte Ltd, Customer Service Officer
19th Sep 2006 -

SHATEC, Hotel Management, DHM408B
07th Apr 2008 -

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Booze...

I am not realli feeling too well this week. Kinda feeling the fatigue and heartbreak.
Thanks to the person who invented booze, the temporary morphine to my heart.

Booze on Thursday night with Jenefer and Seline.
More booze tonight with Dheeraj and Jasmine.
Feeling kinda nice with the emotions on freeze.
I just want more to continue this whizz.
Please help stop this sadness and give me a reprive.

I know this will get better in time, it is now which is so hard to get through.
If only I could find the words to express myself, I guess tears in bed will be my current solution.

Please God help me...

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/24/2009 01:12:00 AM

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Monday, May 18, 2009

Opps!

Okie, officially I am smiling. He just called me.
Can't say much, but I guess this is a small return. Hope it does last. :)

Anyway, my results are out today. Have not got the physical transcript, but got the news from Ms Anvie. Can't ask much more. Straight A's this time. GPA increased slightly. 3.91
Nevertheless, like to congratulate everyone....

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/18/2009 09:53:00 PM

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Haven't been veri enthu to write since like for woah!!! Dunno how long. Went on sabatical I guess.

Guess my heart found a second... sort of got me distracted from my daily life, even from this blog. Anyway, unlike huang shan, feelings fell in for him came in with much interaction and hanging out. Feelings was definitely floating within the percentages for both guys.

It was definitely a great ride with the months that I had with him. Spicy steamboats, spicy ramen (ya, everything with the spice. Haha!) home visits, the hamsters etc. Every moment with him is like a new opening. Looking back, I totally wish I could turn back the time to re-live it. Not to mention the exams, but to go through it with him, nothing was too tough. He is Jongki.

Guess in my heart, I know relationship with huang shan is more like a fairy tale. Something I wish to have, but always a dream. I still don't mind pursuing it. But with all the signs I am getting, I am not having much hope.

Jong jong is more to a down-to-earth relationship / friendship. Definitely not a smooth road, but is no blizzard. However, like all good things, it has its ends too. This though, I did not see it coming.

Things just got into a weird change. Not sure what had happened but am experiencing radio silence for about 5 days. Maybe I am over-sensitive, maybe it is true, but just feel he is avoiding me somehow. Just feeling very very confused about this. Just feeling what should I do or give us some quiet time from each other.

I mean after it is not a relationship, he should still respect the friendship we had. The least I could expect is some respect and honesty between us. There may be nothing, but having your friend wait in radio silence for such a long period, is it what friendship is about? Sigh! Maybe the friendship / relationship is really not meant to be.

But feelings is not really something which I can turn on and off just like that with a snap of a finger. And I really hate feeling of loving someone and not having. Really tired of feeling and not being able to love. I am still feeling a lot for him, my so-called 20% (in fact, from what I think I am feeling, it is definitely more than 50%). I will just let time heal me slowly. If it is meant to be, it will be. Really hope he could give me a sign, at least I know what I should do next.

Guess the question for pondering, simple yet profound, "can u manage love?"

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/18/2009 08:57:00 PM

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