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Monday, May 31, 2004

Goodbye My Sister, Peici!

Woke up realli early 2dae 2 rush down 2 the airport 2 send my sister off. Realli goin 2 miss u alot. Sob! Sob! Cambodia so far, pray u are fine.

Anyway, yep! her whole family plus my brother's too. Make me feel a little out. Haha! Nah! I noe all of thm anyway. Realli happy 2 see all of them. Like wedding, man! Haha!

Gotta noe a few of her friends too from the group. One lady whom is known as Feli. Pretty pretty... Their "Bar-tao"! Haha! One lady of a basketballer height! Man! 1.8+++m!!! Woah! Inferior man! Plus plus plus... also gotta noe Chaowei's love rival! Haha! Sorry leh! Mingwei!

Love Rivals
Wei2
Frm left to rite:- Chaowei & Mingwei

Yep! Undoubtingly, he is indeed pretty handsome. Nah! Still support my brother. Sorry la! U... too late! Anyway, glad 2 meet u all.

Project Takeo Group

Group Shot of The Involved Parties
Welcome The Brave Warriors Of Cambodia... Painting Warriors!!!

Hmmm... parting with my sister 2dae. Tml with my mum and brother. Then I am home alone. Sigh! Soon will b my turn. Haha!

Anyway, went out with thm 2 Bedok 4 lunch. Parted 4 ICA Building 2 apply 4 passport & down 2 the Suntec's bookfair. Long dae and was pretty bushed after a super tiring dae. Not 2 mention... a painful one too. Keep getting pinched by Chaowei. Nvm, since he feeling lonely, let it b la. Haha! Got so many blue blacks liao.

Some Scenic Shots

Suntec's Bus Stop
Some Scenery Frm The Bus Stop Of Suntec

Ok, need 2 settle my photos now. Shall update whn I am free again.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/31/2004 07:55:00 PM

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Sunday, May 30, 2004

Packing My Bag & Ready To Go

Been packing my luggage 4 my trip on the 3rd the whole day. Actually there was not much 2 pack, juz tt when I saw my clothes all in a mess, the "neat spirit" in me juz got itchy in the butt. Took all out 2 iron. All the insufficient space n long negligence had caused many of them 2 crumple and collect dust. 3 cupboards full and I am still running out of place. Actually did not bring all out. Juz half of it. Enough 2 spend the whole noon ironing n washing them. Still need bring some 2 dry wash tml. Wat I can call? Laundry day, missy! Haha!

Laundry Day
Half My Clothes Collection
U think tt's all? Juz half, juz half...

Anyway, almost done with my packing. Juz still left with some last minute stuff 2 b done. Money, toiletries blah! Shall complete it on another day.

Anyway, also took some shots of my desktop yesterday. Juz a small intro 2 my humble workplace. Makes as a small memory 4 me in the future.

My Humble Workspot
My Table
What a big lovely mess!?! Welcome!

Shall explain all my side notes.

My NDP SARS stickers. Yep! The wonderful period I had last yr. Parading n practicing n performing all thru Apr till Aug. Woah! Realli great time esp the sun...the great friends I made.
My old recorder. Anyone else remember how 2 use this? Believe it followed me thru primary sch all the way 2 secondary. Music lesson, my fave. Still play with it once in a while. Try blowing it with ur nose. Haha!
8 days. Nvr part with it esp now since the TV now is my best friend besides this computer.
Stationery. Yep! Realli a lot. Actually juz a small portion of my collection. Collected thru out my schooling yrs, all the way till now. I confess! Got some from army. Hey! I lost a lot of pens in the army too k? Payback!
Singapore Maps. My faithful buddy 2 guide me thru my outings in Singapore. Too bad no guide 2 wat can I do in Singapore. Interesting I mean.
My study notes plus books. Juz feel a little rusty in my knowledge. Veri rusty in fact. Haha! Anyway, going thru all of them again. Feel so sucky studying, but love 2 b a student again.
Potato chips. Juz a small part of my stash-up titbits 2 follow me thru everything I do. Yummy! In fact eating some now. Yum! Yum! Yum!
Kindergarten picture. Actually, this is juz 1 picture out of a few in my desk. Old memories which I can see everytime I sit down at my desk. Ooo...so touching! Haha!

Ok, tt's almost everything on my desktop. Can b saying everything. Composition also not enough. Haha! But all I can say is, it is veri messy. Haha!

Prob shall expand it 2 my whole house. Better take some shots of memory b4 I move out. Memories 2 cling on maybe. See 1st. 4 now, juz wind up here.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/30/2004 09:02:00 PM

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Saturday, May 29, 2004

Toa Payoh Encounter

Being sick realli sucks! Esp whn u are in the midst of having fun. Realli glad having a realli long rest did the trick. Though I muz say, half the time, I was awake. Hmmm... sort of defeat the purpose huh?

Anyway, caught out with my usual grp of family. Noe I cld always count on thm whn I needed company or a shoulder 2 lean on. Realli gotta thank thm. Muacks!

Yep! Caught a movie in Toa Payoh. Figured tt an outing always in town was realli getting 2 boring. Needed a change. Besides, been there like the past 3 days, shopping, eating blah! I think I realli need a break from town.

Sizzler's Dine In

Niu Lang, Peici, Chaowei
Frm left to rite:- Peici & Chaowei @ Sizzler's; Niu Lang @ PC's House

Decided 2 squander a bit more 2dae juz sort of 2 send each other off. Guess this wld b the last get-together 4 the while till 18th June since everyone is travelling overseas. My dear sister Peici, off 2 her fundraising trip in Cambodia on 31st. My dear Niu Lang Zhiwei, off 2 Hong Kong on 14th. While me, off 2 Malaysia on 3rd. Juz leaving my poor brother Chaowei all alone in Singapore. Sorry! Prob plan a trip with all of us in July. See first. Anyway, yep! dine in @ Sizzler's. Guess we realli ordered too much. Eat till we almost puke! Haha! Thank God manage 2 finish everything off the table even those frm the salad bar. Juz left the garlic bread. Haha! Monsters!

Headed off 2 Peici's abode after a short digestive walk 2 collect some lecture notes. Preparing 4 the warming up 2 the good old schooldays. Hehe! Juz hope army did not make us 2 rusty.

Hmmm... okay, enough of blogging. Need 2 handle some other stuff on hand. Write more in tomorrow's entry. Nitez!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/29/2004 11:33:00 PM

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Friday, May 28, 2004

ORD Bash

Came home pretty late last nite. Was too beat up 2 realli upload the picts. Anyway, am still awaiting 4 Jia Hao n Elvin 2 send me more picts frm their digicam. So till then, will update my photobucket.

Yep! Went out whole of yesterday. Early morn, went down 2 town 2 look 4 my DVD player. Hehe! Had 2 get one, else my bday present will totally b wasted. Anyway, was told by my aunt she got hers in town 4 merely 100bucks. So was pretty determined 2 find one yesterday. Let me call it, "Operation DVD". Drat! Did not even find one close 2 120bucks.

Juz when I thot mission was abt 2 b failed, my aunt called. Saved by her. Met her up at Thomson Plaza 2 get the player frm her. SHE PAID IT FOR ME!!! Haha! Thanks Uncle SK & Ee-Ee!!! Now, cool! Got this realli cool DVD player with almost every function. Juz pray it last.

Tried it out this morn. Man! I could almost count the every bead of moisture of Keanu's face!!! Cld count the number of pores on Faye's face. Haha! Crystal clear man! This player shall b my nxt entertainment 4 the free mths I am having. Hehe!

Yeah! Did not realli intended 2 turn up 4 the ORD bash anyway. Kumar, he dragged me out. Nvm, at least I enjoyed it. Gotta thanks Jiahao's folks 4 so kindly opening up their house & playing such great host. Though I muz admit, there was so much food leftover, dun think they need do marketing nxt week. Haha! Realli great 2 c everyone back together, cooking their food over the hotpan & joking. Realli been a long time since I saw such unity. Juz miss the old days. Now everyone is parting. Sigh!

ORD Group Shot
ORD loh!
In no order:- BK Tan, Chin Leng, Daniel, Elton, Elvin, James, Jeff, Jiahao, Kok Seng, Sam, Sivakumar, Tong, Weihua, Wenshan, Xiao Low & Me

p.s. will get a clearer one frm Elvin n Jia Hao. Mine is juz a fun cam. Not so gd. Guess price comes with quality. Haha!

Anyway, seems like whnever ppl ORD, appearances tend 2 change. Tong actually grew long hair n a moustache! Sam... his hair juz grown more curly n bushy. Jiahao... fancy the most good guy among my batch... went 2 streak his hair red!!! Cool! Realli looks good on him. Kumar too look good with his new hairdo. Ppl realli noes how 2 change.

Gotta thank so many of my friends 4 bringing all together again. Makes army life not tt bad after all. But realli gonna miss all my friends in the company. Wonder will we get together again. Hope so.

p.s. Juz wondering why is it always Sam & Xiao Low who kenna strip? Haha! Poor guys.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/28/2004 12:56:00 PM

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

I Am Back

Yep! Back @ home @ last. Not bad stay over. Got a few picts 4 memories.

Staying Over With Ee-Ee
Luthearn Staying Over
Great Scenery, Great Place!

Juz got home by 6. Shopping in Orchard again. Not me alone. I dun have tt much $$$. With my Ee-Ee or wat we call, aunt. Realli gotta thank her 4 the great hospitality. Gd time 2 stay away frm home. Keep me away frm much of the painful thots 4 a while.

Not realli totally away but a gd distraction. Am feeling much better. Yep! But escaping is still not the answer. I still gotta face the sadness. Gotta realli say life sucks at times.

Alright, not going 2 talk much here. Too much pessimistic feelings n entries. Shall stop here. Nitez...

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/26/2004 09:39:00 PM

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Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Juz A Small Entry

2dae entry slightly different. Typing in from my aunt's place. Yep! Staying over at her house. Not going home.

Been a long hectic day. Running ard Singapore. Nah! Not realli. Juz been 2 my aunt's house collect my ticks 4 my coach 2 Malaysia.

Lastly, send my cousin over 2 ACJC 4 his swimming blah!!! Not much of importance. Anyway, been realli a while since I entered a school. Woah! Realli miss school life. Actually, not my alma mater, but still enough 2 give me the feeling of going back to school. Miss it, but still dun realli like 2 get back 2 books. Haha!

Pop over 2 Holland Village 4 dinner. Had the best chicken rice. Hmmm... wonder was I hungry or wat? Anyway, realli gotta thank my aunt 4 everything. Told u all she is my fave aunt. Dotes me so well. Dessert @ Swensons. Woah! Feeling like king huh?

Anyway, realli full now. So decide 2 stay over @ her place 4 the nite. Yep! Not too shabby place. In fact, love this place. Luthearn Towers. Anybody I noe live here too? Haha! Can pop over n c me. Hehe!

Ok, better not make this entry too long. Get back 2 my shows n VCD. My my! U shld c my aunt's collection. WOAH!!! U want the lastest, juz come here. Prob there might b Day After Tml stash up somewhere in there. Going 2 dig it out. Nitez!!!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/25/2004 11:18:00 PM

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Monday, May 24, 2004

Inner prayers

Shall try make things a little happier with 2dae's entry. Though I am trying veri hard 2 b a little bit happier. I'm finding it harder n harder. Juz hope things will subside soon. Noe it will not fade away. But juz hope 2 live with it.

Home visits day. Fancy going ard Singapore distributing my well wishes n blessings even with this foul mood of mine. Do not dare believe I can do it. Juz hope I have not spoil anyone's mood in the process. If so, I am so sorry.

Anyway, had not had much time 2 think much 2dae. So guess, my sadness shld not b on my face. Actually, shld b fatigue. Imagine running ard Singapore 2 4 destinations in 6 hours! Woah! Feeling so like superman. Wonder why I do not have the power of orbing. Ok, sorry if I lost anyone on the way. If u dun c Charmed, u prob will not noe wat the shit is tt. It is a form of teleportation used by angels. Yep! Pretty much like tt.

Tml will have another busy dae. Trying 2 make myself as busy as possible, so as not 2 have too much time sitting down, thinking of myself n feeling sad. Seems like I am in quite a bad shape now huh?

Actually, yep! Clearing leave has not done much help 2 me. In fact, I think it is a period of disaster 4 me. Prob I shld thank God too. Wonder how am I gonna juggle with work n prob all @ the same time? Hmm... realli wonder how am I gonna survive tt.

Like going thru a long streak of prob n disaster. This is realli not my yr. Got legs, yet unable 2 run. Got hands, yet unable 2 handle them. How can I b so powerful, yet helpless all at the same time? Sigh! Looking into the face of irony.

Hmmm...the most scary time of the day is coming. Nitefall. Every nite juz lying in my bed, thinking am I ever gonna get thru all these. Wondering how did I ever make it thru all these sadness. Figuring out how 2 survive the nite of cold n loneliness. Every nite, praying n crying in bed 4 someone 2 come take my pain away. Something 2 have 2 cry upon 4 comfort.

Locked in, boxed in, full of tears
My pain grows manic till I cannot hear.
In need of reprieve so that I can breathe
Remove my pain, please make it leave.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/24/2004 09:33:00 PM

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Sunday, May 23, 2004

Have You Ever?

Have you ever felt once in ur life where u are stepped upon by everyone juz 4 ppl 2 make their way up in life?

Have you ever been thru the lowest point in life n feel like u will nvr step out of it?

Have you ever gone thru a time where u felt the coldest bitter winter with no one in the world 2 provide u even with a small cloth of warmth 2 cover with?

Have you ever done sth with all ur effort n yet still get no results, no hope of light?

Have you ever ur walk in life feel like the burden of the world is on ur shoulders n yet, u still muz go thru it all alone?

Have you ever in a moment thot of ending ur life, making all misery stop but juz do not have the courage?

Have you ever trusted n loved someone so much onli 2 b totally betrayed n made use of?

Have you ever experience the greatest joy in ur life, onli 2 b told tt was all a dream, a made-up fantasy?

Have you ever tried giving up everything in life n restart a brand new fresh life, but keep looking back at the old one?

I have been thru all these over and over n over again. Borned in a fantasy bubble, floating high up into the sky, onli for it 2 burst n bring u back down 2 earth. Down n down I go with nothing 2 break my fall. Lastly, the ending is a battered n bruised body laying on the cold, damp floor. Juz waiting 4 the beast 2 devour piece by piece of the rotten flesh.

Juz feel life is so meaningless. Everything done 2 make things better are juz futile efforts. Lost all purpose in life.

Who am I? What am I here for? Where do I come from? Where do I belong?

Simple basic questions which I am asking myself but answers juz do not make any sense anymore. Are the answers of the world so complex I do not understand? Or are they juz so simple which I cannot comprehend? I dunno. Juz feel like in a world of emptiness, searching 4 a grain of sand, the answer, but juz lost n alone. Stuck with hunger n cold. Filled with distress n bitterness. Feeling utterly hopeless n self pity. This is pain, pure pain, pure suffering.

I hate myself! I hate the world! I hate everybody! I hate everything!

I realli dunno wat is love. I dunno wat is hate. I dunno wat 2 love or wat 2 hate. I dunno anything.

Please help me...

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/23/2004 09:47:00 PM

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Saturday, May 22, 2004

My New Fun Cam

Though was not feeling tt well 2dae, still went out almost the whole dae. Guess I hve been feeling tt lousy 4 so long, no pt cramming myself at home n suffer. Will not solve anything even if I die at home. No one will care nor noe. So stepped out of my house n decide to rot with my friends.

Went back 2 camp 2 meet Weixiong 1st. Purpose was simple. 2 get back my HP. Need tt in order 4 my fun cam 2 work. Yep! Bought tt 4 some time alreadi @ a cheap price of $52. All thks 2 my sister. Anyway, means my blog will not b so boring liao. But need 2 do editing 1st. So prob will take some time b4 posting the pict up.

Went lunching with him @ Goodwood Park Hotel. Though I insisted on going dutch, he still foot the bill in the end. Thks a million! Ok food with a great setting. Guess I shld hve taken some picts there. Wasted! Anyway, manage pour out my probs on him. So sorry! Big burden. Though did not realli say all, guess tt will b enough 4 one dae. Big shock alreadi.

Next went out with Shirley, Rayson and Justin 4 movie. Woah! Power pack. Cineleisure was crowded like ants. Man! Juz wonder wat will it b like during the holidays. Anyway, chat throughout the rest of the time. Who said man are not chatty? Haha! Anyway, once again, armt updates again. Haha! Guess, I am fated 2 stick 2 armt 4 this life.

Now back @ home, trying uploading all my pict. 4 the start, shall speed thgs up n upload it despite the time.

Shrek Before Chat

Shreking The Chat
Collage Of My 1st Cam Try-Out

The miserable feeling coming back again. Feel like I regretted pouring out 2 much 2dae. Wonder if I cld juz take some back. Sigh! Wonder why am I always feeling so lousy? How 2 make this sucky feeling go? Sigh!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/22/2004 11:40:00 PM

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Friday, May 21, 2004

Breaking The Silence

Almost a week of silence, a week of heartbreak and pain. Feel this muz b one of the longest week I have ever gone thru. Will not break this silence with an exceptionally long entry. Juz keep it minimal, after all, there is nothing much 2 say.

This week is one hell of a week in silent solitude. With realli no mood 2 do anything. Dun even noe how 2 blog in words. So explaining the non-entries. Feeling completely lost with no one 2 turn to. Feeling like the world juz abandon me or wat. Suddenly "All By Myself" makes total sense by juz a click of a finger.

Feel so lousy tt I juz wanna blame the whole world 4 wat they have inflict on me. Where are u all? Dun seem 2 understand why this world is so cruel, so cold. Suddenly, the words "kinship" & "friendship" juz lumps up 2 form this big word "JOKE". Having these is almost is meaningless. If having these is the true meaning of life, then I juz feel it is better off without any of these. Juz add on 2 the burden of life n hardship.

I noe these are juz moments of words of anger n disappointment. But if anyone shld ask me if I mean it, I wld not deny tt 2 a certain level, I DO agree with the statement. Realli feel the world has let me down. Ok, I noe wat right do I have 2 say it? Or wat right do I have 2 judge? I dun. Maybe it is juz karma. Maybe it is destiny. Watever it is, with wat I am feeling now, I dunno wat 2 think wat is right of wrong.

The world is so big, I am so small, standing on juz 1 small speck of it. Yet, I am feeling the force of the world. The force of being crashed.

I HATE YOU!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/21/2004 09:01:00 PM

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Sunday, May 16, 2004

Influences

Been 2 church 2dae. Got me thinking again. Deep thinking. Veri powerful yet meaning sermon. One of the best which is able 2 catch hold on to my attention thru? out the whole church service. Abt "Influencing The World For Christ". Sounds simple huh?

Here it goes. Juz how do we present ourselves 2 the world. Do we portray a good image or a bad one? Coz if we portray a good one, ppl naturally will wish 2 get 2 noe us. However, if the opposite, automatically it is quite obvious the reverse.

Come 2 think of it. Which category am I in now? The black or the white? Ice or fire? I noe some of u will think I am in the white, some in the black, depending on which area u all judge on. I feel I was in the white, now in the black.

It is not tt I am passive or unconfident of myself. Juz basing it on facts n reality. Met a teacher in church service 2dae too. An ex-primary school teacher. The sad thing is she does not even recognize me one bit. I noe my looks may hve change a bit, or a lot. But was it the change of innocence & goodness?

Juz feel thru the past few yrs, I hve been losing more friendship than the number of movies I watched. Juz feel how much hve I neglected on self-portrayment. How did I come 2 such a state? Juz looking back, there is almost a 360 degrees change without noticing it myself.

Guess now is a bit too late 2 realli gain back all my losses. But changing 2 restart shld not b tt late. Shall not drown myself in self-pity. Otherwise, I will def b even more useless than I am now.

But where do even start 2 regain back my innocence, my former self? I dunno.

p.s. Change the song 4 a while 2 BBMak's Ghost Of You And Me 2 suit my present mood. 2 speak out the inner voice frm my heart since lately. I am sad and heartbroken. Lost and beaten. Juz nowhere and no one 2 turn 2. Guess voicing out in a song which lyrics speaks 4 me might ease some of the pain.

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

*I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/16/2004 09:33:00 PM

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Saturday, May 15, 2004

A Walk In Bishan

Been a real long while since I have been in Bishan. So much hve changed. Woah! Here drill, there drill. Feels like I am in one big giant construction site. Even walking ard the whole place is like one big giant consturction maze. Here block, there block. Juz wonder whn all these will b over. Anyway, the place was like everything is free. Wat I mean? With the crowd present, juz free like almost the whole Singapore was there 2 grab the freebies. Hmmm... it was terribly crowded. Prob it is the weekends n its situation within the housing estate area.

Anyway, caught a show with my Niu Lang. Apparently, the AXS Machine we used 2 purchase ran out of paper. Had 2 manually grab the tickets direct frm the booth with the confirmation number. Guess I muz hve gotta the BIGGEST cinema ticket anyone has gotten b4. Printed on an A4 size paper. Haha! No joke! Will def keep this ticket as a big memento. Haha!

Armament Clerk's Meet @ PS
Collage Of Clerks
Fellowship Of Plaza Singapura

Anyway, Yippie! The photos 4 my Armt Clerk's Meet is out. With compliments frm our dear Tai ye ye! Not frm a digicam but frm his HP. Suddenly got such an urge 2 get a camera HP. So can take photos of all my outings. @ least memories like tt are more vivid, compare 2 dull words. Though the pic quality is not of those frm a digicam, but with the tech of my PC n stress of my wallet, guess a camera HP will b most ideal. Shall c 1st. Anyway, Uploaded the pictures into my gallery alreadi. Muz b wondering why is there so little of me. Sorry, I am still veri camera shy. Not too keen on taking photos of myself. Hmm? Posted a college rather than a single picture since it did not occur 2 me then 2 take a grp picture. Shall do it nxt time if I hve a cam-HP.

Still feeling veri happy over 2dae. Now looking 4ward 2 the nxt adventure. Juz wonder whn will tt b. Also looking 4ward 2 the nxt movie viewing. Still got "The Day After Tml", "Harry Potter & The Prisoner Of Azkaban", "The Chronicles Of Riddick", "Catwoman", "Shrek 2" n one more viewing of the great "Van Helsing". Some alreadi got bookings, some still unbooked. Juz wonder whn all these fun stuff will continue? Hmmm...

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/15/2004 11:48:00 PM

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Cute Horoscopes

Apparently, got this in my mail box quite a while ago. Juz sth wrong with my PC. I onli manage savage a few. Hope it does include some of urs. Anyone who does hve the complete version. Hope u can send it 2 me.

Do u find my cow so cute? Haha! Anyway, find it is sort of quite true. Guess life this yr shan b tt smooth. Nevertheless, shall not let tt get me down. After all, I dun believe my fate is in words, but in my palms.

Going 2 go out soon. Been quite a while since I go out with my Niu Lang. Actually onli a week. Hehe! But still find this week quite long. Talk more whn I get back.

p.s. post the remaining few horoscopes I manage 2 recover in my PC. Feel free thumb thru them.

Libra

Sagittarius

Virgo

Taurus

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/15/2004 02:14:00 PM

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Friday, May 14, 2004

Unexpected Post

Recent few days, receive a few unexpected emails n writings. All of mixed feelings. Shall start with the most recent one all the way till the earliest.

Receive a mail frm an anonymous person. I noe my blog is def veri public. 2dae, I can further confirm. Haha! Got someone asking my directions 2 9SIB. Haha! Hey! I hope u receive my reply in ur mailbox. If u still get lost on the actual day, u can feel free 2 sms me. The HP no on my blog is real. Dun worry. Hmm? juz sort of miss my camp life. Yep! I noe I was talking abt my camp n the dreamworld. Juz feel it is still veri hard 2 move on frm sth u hve been with 4 2+ yrs. Keep looking back n wonder why I did not cherish those times tt much. Sort of regret. Miss it.

Next is a mail I got yesterday frm SMU. Sort of got me pretty sad. Veri sad. Seems like this yr, the number of ppl who applied 4 SMU is dreadfully A LOT. An excess by 7K+. Oh dear! Realli wonder will I enter this yr or not. Realli wish a placing in there. But juz looking @ the crowd, think I am alreadi losing my confidence. Not tt the letter was bringing me any bad news, but I juz felt super brought down by the immense crowd. Realli wonder wat 2 do. I noe many friends are encouraging me like mad. N I shld b happier n b more confident. But I juz cannot seem 2 control my truth feelings. And it is tt I am veri scare, veri sad. Sigh! Juz dunno how 2 truthly describe my truth fears. But nevertheless, thanks 4 all the encouragement.

Earlier back, also got a testimonial in my friendster frm an unexpected friend. Jingda! Yep! My best friend in Primary School. Realli wonder how is he now. His testimonial of me realli brought back deep memories of the best times I had with him during those days. So carefree n the road was so smooth. Juz feel life was almost perfect 4 me then. Studies was great. We both will juz dominate the top 2 positions in class every exam. Yep! Also remember our form teacher then, Miss Jac. Wonder how is she alreadi. Nvr 4get how she always address us both as her 2 devils. Haha! And her introduction 2 us of the quick n easy way of learning the spelling of MOUSE. Hehe! Got so much memories 2 bring back. Juz hope time can rewind. Guess we muz still move on in life. But still hope 2 meet up with him soon. Wonder how are u.

Hmmm? tt?s so much so 4 now. Wonder how many more unexpected mails, testimonials blah I will receive still. Juz hope it dun end here. Nature realli has a funny way in surprising me.

Blogger as I said few days b4 looks nice, BUT its stability still sucks! Was unable 2 access it 4 almost an hour. Sigh! Wonder why am I still putting up with the bloggy thingy!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/14/2004 10:40:00 PM

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Get Together Reunited

Haha! A golden opportunity yesterday. Met up with my 2 generations of ex-armt chief clerks. Tai n Benny. Hmm..juz 2 bad the present one was unable 2 b there. Not tt he did not want 2 come, I did not ask. Mainly, HEY IT IS THU! Army is still wk in progress. Haha! Anyway, manage 2 get tt bloody fat Justin out of his adobe @ last. @ least none of them change much. Anyway, real glad 2 hve got them all out.

Din realise there was so much of catching up 2 do with my friends. Laughing n talking n eating all thru out the nite. Explains my sudden thirst whn I got home @ nite. Hehe!

Anyway, frm the talk, I sort of got a taste of wat civilian life is. Juz felt I am so far behind. There is so much 2 catch up n so much 2 rediscover again. Juz felt like the 2+ yrs in army, I lost most of my touch with the whole outside. Like I hve been living in the army dreamworld of mine. Now, like the cage is finally going 2 open in abt a mths time, I juz feel like I am struggling 2 put my life back. 4 so long, I finally realise wat was my prob. It was me n the real world. Being in fantasy was def a real holiday 4 me. Juz feeling the reluctance 2 actually go back out of the zoo, into the jungle 4 own survival. Juz hve this feeling of wanting 2 hold back n cont my dream.

Guess in life, one cannot realli stay stagnant too long. It is high time 4 me 2 move on n get back onto my 2 feet n walk. The road is so small, but the jungle is so wide. Juz dunno how 2 walk thru it at times. Pray 4 courage n strength 2 move along n get out of the jungle again. This adventure trip is realli a herculean task, but sth I muz do. Sth everyone muz go thru. I juz hope I hve wat it takes. +ve attitude I muz say. Juz wonder whn the fun stuff will start again.

p.s. Loaded one of the tracks frm Faye's lastest album, Jiang Ai. 1 of my fave in tt album, Yang Bao. Juz 2 start the engine up 4 the concert I'm going with my bro nxt mth. This bro n his idol, Faye. Haha! Jon, get a grip of urself! Hehe! Hope it will b a great nite n show. Realli lookin 4ward 2 it. But juz sth crop up. Hope able 2 solve it soon. Sigh!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/14/2004 11:47:00 AM

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Think Positive!

Been thinking the whole nite thru last nite. Juz the weather is so damn hot, dozing off is juz like trying 2 get a motorbike 2 reverse.

Naturally, my mind will juz drift off 2 some deep thoughts. A penny 4 it? Nah! Think a penny is too cheap 4 it. I will make a loss. Anyway, nothing is finalized. So shall c 1st.

Got sth in the mail a bit on +ve thinking. Sort of a bit ridiculous. Or wat I shld say, extreme. Nevertheless, it is worth a try. Actually, come 2 think of it, I am way far far far far ? ? frm this type of thinking. Shall still post it anyway.

1. For the husband who snores all nite, becoz he is @ home asleep with me & not with someone else.

2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining abt doing dishes, becoz tt means she is @ home & not on the streets.

3. For the taxes tt I pay becoz it means tt I am employed.

4. For the mess 2 clean after a party becoz it means tt I hve been surrounded by friends.

5. For the clothes tt fit a little too snug becoz it means I hve enough 2 eat.

6. For my shadow tt watches me wk becoz it means I am out in the sunshine.

7. For a floor tt needs mopping & windows tt need cleaning becoz it means I hve a home.

8. For all the complaining I hear abt the govt becoz it means tt we hve freedom of speech.

9. For the parking spot I find @ the far end of the parking lot becoz it means I am capable of walking & tt I hve been blessed with transportatn.

10. For the noise I hve 2 bear frm my neighbours becoz it means tt I can hear.

11. For the pile of laundry & ironing becoz it means I hve clothes 2 wear.

12. For weariness & aching muscles @ the end of the day becoz it means I hve been capable of wking hard.

13. For the alarm tt goes off in the early morn hrs becoz it means tt I am stilll alive.

AND FINALLY for received personal letters & meaningful 4warded emails becoz it means I hve friends who r thinking of me.

Ok, these changes is 1 big WAY too much 4 me 2 handle. Not tt I will not try. But I shan?t b totally like tt. Too unrealistic. Yep! Totally way out of order. Shall juz do wat is necessary.

Anyway, 2dae has been a pretty crappy day 4 me. Imagining facing all my lecture notes again. Trying 2 remember wat I was taught n how 2 solve the prob is giving me a hell of a headache. I noe I am pretty stupid in actually torturing myself now, since there is a possibility I may not get a chance 2 study. But nevertheless, think it is still better than lazing ard n doing nothing, since no one realli wants me ard in anything. Yep! Pretty much like tt.

Actually, am taking a break from those papers with this blog stuff also. Wonder will I still have time 4 this SHLD I go back 2 sch. (which till a certain extent, I am doubting myself. Sigh!) Nevertheless, juz try my best n not think too far. Juz makes my head explode.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/12/2004 07:35:00 PM

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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Testimonials Essays

Did not realli step out of the house 2dae. Was supposed 2 hve another kayak session with Oph. Ended sth came out unexpectedly. Yep! So decide 2 postpone 2 a later date. Juz pray her grandma wld get well soon.

Anyway, being on the PC the whole dae. Trying 2 solve this stupid prob. Guess after the whole afternoon of treatment, tender love n care, this PC finally learn 2 acknowledge it n is back 2 normal. Juz pray it last. Anyway, am trying it out now 2 make sure it realli stays.

Been typing testimonials 4 my friendsters contact list. Been nagged, pestered, threaten by many of them 2 give them one. So, might as well do one 4 all. Save all trouble from ppl pestering me 4 one. Yep! I noe, Baoling shldn?t realli treat friendsters like a free parking lot. Haha! I noe I noe! ?Sa-man? coming liao 4 illegal parking. Haha! Hope u like the payment. So parking extension approve huh? Good! Now I want mine.

Anyway, dun wanna type anymore. Fingers sort of becoming veri numb from all the typing. Guess I am realli not fit 2 b a clerk. Hey! I have been typing since 1pm all the way till now n still left 30+ testimonials not written. Aiyo! Brain dead. Think I shall cont tml. 4 now, tata!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/11/2004 10:29:00 PM

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Prezzies Shopping

Haha! Yesterday was realli shopping like nobody�s business. Juz feel so poor now. Haha! Was down @ Orchard yesterday, shopping @ practically almost every shopping centre 4 a perfect gift 5ppl. Guess I think I hve overshot my budget. Sigh! Nvm, juz hope it was all 4 nothing.

Went back 2 camp in the evening 2 hand over Samantha�s wedding prez 2 the section. (apparently, was asked 2 get 1 so 4 the section 2 share; sort of reduce my expenditure.) The wkshp still hvn�t change much or prob I am back 2 often. Changes 2 me are quite gradual. Anyway, happy happy. Still glad 2 meet up with a lot of friends.

Did not relli expect 2 go out @ nite. But was called 2 go back 2 Orchard celebrate Kevin�s birthday. Head off 2 SSDC 1st with Weixiong n Darren 2 settle some matters n then down 2 Man U Shop 2 grab sth 4 Kev�s prez. Yep! A loyal fan of them is Kev, so got this ball n shirt 4 him. Finally met up with the rest, Jon, VJ n of course, Kev. As usual, no one cld make up their mind where 2 go. Coffee chat? Karaoke? Supper? Ended up onli afer half an hour�s time, chat over coffee @ Spinelli�s.

Guess 2dae is still a working dae 4 most ppl, so the nite was short. Am glad tt they still spend the effort 2 meet up. But juz find the lack of life within the grp. Juz hope it was me who is over-sensitive. Nah! Shall not think so much. Shall end here early. Good dae!

p.s. Interesting new blogger site format now. Juz hope it is more stable n dun give up so often as b4. Haha!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/11/2004 09:46:00 AM

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Sunday, May 09, 2004
Mama's Day
Hmmm... 2dae's Mama's Day. Did not realli enjoy it as much as I wanted 2. Juz still pretty affected by yesterday's results. As much as I noe I can comfort myself or not tt I nvr receive such results b4, can't seem 2 stop feelin so lousy of myself. I mean juz lookin ard me with everyone witha placing in Uni, with such a bright future. Even some hve the headache of choosing which Uni 2 enter, not 2 talk on with course 2 talk. Somehow, juz feel so stupid, so dumb. Everytime think of all my friends in Uni while I still outside slogging 2 find a job, realli bring tears 2 my eyes.

These few yrs hve been a realli realli tough time 4 me. Speak of every aspect of life. Nothing hve gone smooth 4 me. True, if everything goes smooth, I will not appreciate it. But juz feel tt with everything I am going thru, I am failing in even the most basic fundamental areas of life. Juz wonder wat is wrong with me. Can anyone tell me where hve I gone wrong? Wat am I so bloody stupid, so bloody ... ... ... beyond words like shit? Sigh!

Nvm, shan't try spoil anyone's mood 2dae. Juz wish my mama a great Happy Mother's Day. Also 2 those out there who hve been guiding me, teaching me, supporting me etc. even 4 the smallest part in my life, u all realli are like these small but great mothers (be u all are guys or gals) 2 me. Thanks 4 being there. Happy Mother's Day 2 u all too!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/09/2004 11:11:00 PM

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Saturday, May 08, 2004
1 Down, 2 More 2 Go
Went out 2dae as usual. Hve my weekly hangout with my Niu Lang. Yep! Movie n dinner n little get together. Juz a difference, we decide 2 save up a little. Decide 2 dine in foodcourt rather than the usual extravagant restaurants. Times are hard plus I am abt 2 lose my source of income. Time 2 tighten my belt. Noe it is a little late, but better than dun start rite? Juz speaking of it, spend the money instead on clothes. Sigh! Wonder wat was I thinking? Sigh!

Anyway, am not realli veri good now. Think juz type finish my blog n go 2 slp. Juz receive my NUS application results 2dae. Not tt I did not expect it, juz was hoping a little too high, I guess. Noe with my results, it was a little far-fetch. Uni, not realli such a place 4 stupidity. Hmm� guess I shall cont hope 4 the other 2. Actually banging real hard on SMU. Leave it all into the hands of God.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/08/2004 11:01:00 PM

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Friday, May 07, 2004
Oph Outing
Went out almost the whole day yesterday. Main aim was npt realli achieve due 2 the blasting rain. But @ least manage 2 carry out the wet weather program. Hmmm� sounds veri systematic huh? Actually everything juz came out there n then.

Yep! Caught Van Helsing @ Suntec. This is my 1st show with my sis. Man! Honored! Hehe! Anyway, had not much of a choice as it was still raining pretty heavy. Wonder wat wrong with the weather nowadays. Immediately after the hot season, comes the blistering rain. Gotta take care of myself else realli will fall ill.

Anyway, made our way down 2 East Coast after tt. Cldn�t realli go out 2 sea as closing time was b4 dusk. All we had was like an hour more. Decide 2 postpone it till nxt Tue instead. Hmmm�

Took a short stroll along the beach, enjoy the waves, the breeze, the scenery n big chat. Haha! Actually, we were heading down 2 Changi Village. Juz nearby anyway. Freaking bus rides! By the time we reached, both of us were alreadi famished.

Was pretty surprised 2 see tt the queue 4 the nasi lemak stores were super short. I mean usually it was crowding with ppl. 2dae, it was halved the crowd. Wonder wat happened.

Anyway, made our way home after dinner since after a long day of walk n bus rides, legs n hips were alreadi aching. Guess it is telling us we hve been slacking far too long. Thinking of heading back 2 camp shld there b life runs. Had 2 prepare 4 the reservist IPPT phase too. Shall start nxt week. Juz hope I hve discipline.

2dae hve been another computer day. Spend the whole morning adjusting my blogspot. This is due 2 the adjustment of my monitor. Anyway, a lot of info muz b changed. Quite outdated. Hope it works out on other computer monitors esp those using the 1024 x 840 settings. If can�t, plz do drop a msg inform me. Thanks!

K, shall go back 2 my own business. Gd dae!

p.s. Decide 2 post a photo up here. Frm the dae of my platoon's dinner @ Sembawang Yacht Club.

After Dinner Shot

Frm left to rite:- Xiong Xiong, My Bro, Xiao Chin, Ah Wee n Me

Gotta add this credits. Dun wanna b a photo pirate. Haha! The photos are with compliments of Xiao Chin's digicam. U can find sme others in my photobucket. Or check out his site. Thks!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/07/2004 11:53:00 PM

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Wednesday, May 05, 2004
PC SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!
Apparently, spend the whole dae workin on my bloody PC. Either the modem dun work, or the programs conflict. Totally shit! Onli now am I able 2 fully set it up. But hold the congrates 4 now. Till tml morn whn I switch on my PC n it works, then congratulating me still will not b too late.

Nothing else much happen 2dae except evrything on the PC. Still waiting 4 reply on the job interview. Long wait! Nvm, shall c 1st. Also added a new song 2 my site. Faith by Celine Dion. Think I posted the lyrics b4 in my previous entry. Way way early entry. Search urself. Veri meaningful song.

Telling all my friends n folks out there 2 hve faith n put their trust in me. Though @ times I may seem dao, totally oblivious of the ppl ard me, does not mean I do not care or dun want u beside me. I hve my reasons n trying 2 get rid of u all is DEFINITELY NOT the reason. Plz b there 4 me, coz u all r the strength-providers, the shoulder 4 me 2 lean on, 2 walk me thru 2 find my solutions. So stay. Yep! Speak veri well of the situation I am in now.

Hope ppl ard me understand! Thanks n enjoy the rest of the nite!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/05/2004 08:45:00 PM

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Shagged N Bloody PC
Whole 2 days of action. Realli got me super tired. Still can't sleep anyway. Wat happened? My PC gave up on me. Apparently, got hit by the most dreadful virus. The moment u clean it up with ur virus scan. There goes ur PC. It juz hangs in the windows environment. Had 2 reformat my whole PC. Lost so much valuable data. Those who noes I hve MSN messenger, plz add me 2 ur list again. Thanks!

Prob not onli so easy. After reformat, my PC fails 2 detect my modem. Partly, it is located on the PCI slot, not my COM port. Another half a dae gone. 4 no reason again, my monitor gave up on me. Now using this super old monitor frm my 486 computer sys. Onli a VGA monitor with 640 x 480 size desktop. Wanna die alreadi! Desperately need a new PC. No money.

Speaking of finding money, I went 4 a job interview 2dae @ Bukit Merah. Seems far, but I think quite worth it. Rather than sittin @ home slack. Think it went quite well juz tt they need a perm staff rather 2 a temp one. Juz hope I was convincing enough n with the strings pulled by MSG Sivan n his friend, hope it is enough. Though dun realli like paperwork, worse matters 2 deal with money, I desperately need a job. Oh ya! The job is General Clerk. Pretty easy, but busy job scope. Nvm, think I will survive. Wat type of situation hve I not been in b4? Haha!

Anyway, 2dae also went back 2 camp 4 my FFI. So unexpected. I was actually asked of my condition rather than the doctors takin the measurements themselves. Wat a cheat! But also a relief all was over. Time pass pretty fast with Jiahao, Kok Seng n Tong with their urine piss jokes. Haha!

All was over by noon, I am glad. Went down 2 the aquarium with Kok Seng n Jiahao. Can't believe we keep taking the wrong bus stop, or stoppin @ the wrong stops etc. Haha! Took twice as long 2 get 2 the destination. Nvm, @ least we reach rite? U r wrong. THE SHOP WAS CLOSED! Freaky! The weather was hot enough, add on the walk n mistakes, now the shop is closed, Man! Tt was the last straw. Sat down @ the nearby coffeeshop 4 a drink b4 heading in our diff venues. Haha! Realli gotta say sorry 2 poor Jiahao 2 get drag on 4 no reason. Haha! Nvm, @ least had fun.

Think I manage 2 summarize everything pretty quick huh? Guess I am pretty tired over the past few days. Since Fri till now, had not an early nite of rest. Since last last Fri, had not slept more than 3 hours per nite plus on sleeping pills. Wonder how come I hve not peng san. Haha! Yawn! Think I want 2 rest alreadi. So much of travel n repair realli got me VERI TIRED... Haha! Nitey!

p.s. Thanks once again those who chop in 4 my present. My mum is scolding. Sort of sayin a waste of money. 4 me, I dun realli care. Like anything 2 do with KEANU REEVES!!! Elvin, Giant, Gor-gor, Jiahao, Kevin, MSG Sivan, Tongcai, Vijay, Weixiong, Xiao Chin n lastly, 2 my greatest bro (4 tellin me the names onli now.) Joooonnnnnnn! Hahaha! Thanks all of ya!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/05/2004 01:10:00 AM

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Sunday, May 02, 2004
Special Thanks 2 Those There 4 My Birthday Celebration!
Yep! Back frm another birthday celebration. Apparently, had show 1st with Xiao Chin then Kok Seng joined us 4 dinner. Veri honored 2 hve him out. Haha! 1st time. Guess the number of surprise celebrations 4 me is enough 2 make up 4 the loss. Veri happy! Y surprised? Hmmm� didn�t expected Benny 2 take out time 2 celebrate 4 me even after he ROD. Nxt, Kok Seng� Did even expect him 2 come out celebrate 4 me. Not 2 mention the present he bought me. Hahaha! Shall touch on it later. Lastly, did not expect a candlelight dinner with my Niu Lang. Hahaha! I had it! Hahaha!

I mean, wat I expect 2 happen totally did not happen. Wat I planned completely went out of plans. Wat I did not even expect in fact came with a big surprise. Guess God realli work miracles. Am veri veri touched indeed. Thanks a lot!

Oh ya, the present thingy. Apparently, did not expect Kok Seng 2 get a present. He got it anyway. A wallet. Sounds fine huh? Cont hearing. So paiseh 2 even say it. Guess the design of the wallet was so nice, many ppl like the same model. Ok, guess u all expecting wat is the outcome. He got the same one I am using now. Hahaha! Joke huh? Feel so like I rejected the present n send it back 2 the shop 2 exchange. Did not want 2 actually, but he insisted. Thanks a lot, Kok Seng! Got a bag instead. Hmmm� if I did not got the same wallet, tt definitely b one of the best presents. Hahaha!

Anyway, yep! Tt was the super embarrassing n also quite comical situation. Also wanna thank Xiao Chin 4 the meal treat. Hehehe! Had a great time with u 2dae, despite the crowd deficiency. All I can tell u, �I told u so!�. Hahaha! Nvm, onli us will not die, rite? Haha!

Ok, glad 2dae was great. Kok Seng, u share the same thinking as mine. I am happy u think tt way too. Means a lot 2 me. Planning things is indeed hard, but glad u are there 2 support me. Thanks a lot 4 2dae!

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/02/2004 09:27:00 PM

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Saturday, May 01, 2004
Candlelight Dinner
Shall make this blog entry as quick as possible. Juz now's conversation sort of spur me not 2 spend 2 much time on entertainment now but 2 get back 2 my books. Sort of feeling veri veri stupid after out of my books 4 more than 2 yrs. Simple factor theorem. Do u even remember wat is it? Ok, good if u still noe wat is it. Wat r the formulas? Haha! No cheating! Juz wanna start revising shld I b able 2 get 2 Uni.

Anyway, 2dae's outing though was short, but veri memorable 2 me. Sort of celebration of my Niu Lang's & my birthday. Yep! I noe past like many days alreadi. Blame on busy schedules. Anyway, had this great dinner @ Jack's Place. Was thinkin on a decent place actually. Swenson's but sort of a cliche. Yep! So decide 2 go with Jack's Place. Naturally, tt's one of the cheapest candlelight dinner u can get with a decent price. Haha!

Also got a present frm him. Sort of paiseh as I nvr got anything 4 him. Always he is the 1st one who makes the move. Wat a bad zhi nu I am. Sorry! But he also nvr complain. Always qian jiu me. Make me feel so bad. Shitty! Nvm, I'll shall c how tml.

Ok, as promise shall make this entry chop chop. End here. Still thinking of the candlelight dinner. Haha! Thanks a lot!

p.s. Actually was feeling my bday was pretty shitty w/o any celebration. Not realli criticising la. (Actually I am. Haha! Oxymoron!) Like the present, e xin1 yi4. Juz feel lack of sth. A small celebration. Always had cake. This yr pretty pathetic. Dun even hve. Not tt I want one. Juz with comparison, sigh! Onli few ppl realli care. Sob! Nah! Nvm, past liao. Juz live with it. Wrote this down onli 2 let out some steam.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/01/2004 10:44:00 PM

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Farewell Shaun
Yesterday was my platoon's dinner. Held @ Sembawang Yacht Club. Muz say it is a veri nice place. Outdoor shelter styled restaurant. Not realli alfresco style, but more like kampong by the seaside. Haha! Anyway, ya, bloody ulu.

Despite the crowd, wasn't much 2 my liking. Juz feel quite obstracize by my ORD batch. I mean, maybe it is me. Juz feel some of them might b still angry with me over the ORD off thingy. Or maybe juz oversensitive. There was this table of ORD personnel. Guess I was the onli one seated out of tt table. Nah! Nvm, @ least followed where my heart go. Feel closer 2 my buddies.. whom I muz say, wah! Where are they @ this time nxt yr? STILL IN CAMP! Hahaha! Sorry! Evil...

Apparently, did not realli feel like heading out of house any bit as I was still feeling bloody tired. (am still feeling extreme tired) Had even 2 drag myself out. But guess it wasn't nice as it was Shaun's last day (he is heading 2 a new vocation as RP), so decided 2 head out with the grp. (BIG grp with I muz say 3 cars; thank God 4 it else realli like gang fight travelling on bus. Haha!) Was juggling on where 2 go; home, 2 coffee, 2 karaoke, 2 chiong @ China Black. Guess too many cooks spoil the broth. @ least we manage 2 settle with karaoke @ Tea Lover's; Cha Ren Zhi Jia after 1st checkpt @ Delfi Orchard KTV (another renowned place 4 it transversites alley; saw quite a few hideous ones)was fully booked.

Started out with everyone feeling so much of life. Xingda trying 2 rap every shit song on the screen. If they like 2 play with mics, might as well pay me the money (due mind taking half price), I open my house let them play with 4 mics. Hahaha! Anyway, things settle down later. Didn't say realli enjoy as much as I wanted. Fatigue I guess. But @ least this is the best I cld get. One comment muz b made. Wan Poo has the weirdiest n most retro type of songs. Man! Not even do I noe the singers. Hahaha! Anyway, things frm "settled down" status got down 2 more quiet mood whn it past 1am. Eyes become heavy. Singing become more heavy. Hahaha! Guess everyone's tired after a day's of hard work. Not 4 me of course. But was also bloody tired.

Time's out! Everyone poured out of the KTV. Once again, too many cooks spoil the broth. Deciding on who 2 take whose car home 2 which destination. Haha! 13 ppl in all. Jeff, Jon, Kevin, Lionel, Shaun, Siang Han, Vijay, Wan Poo, Wee, Weixiong, Xingda, Yong Ee n me. Wat a crowd! Once again, @ least everyone got back safely. Except me, muz fall down on the bloody stairs. Sigh!

Anyway, besides the pt, gotta comment 2 big a grp 4 KTV isn't tt good. Can't realli sing or a bit far 2 messy. Juz hope nxt rd will b better.

# Entry By Matt Evans @ 5/01/2004 11:45:00 AM

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